Evangelicalism and the questioned sense of belonging
"I want to belong, and I want to trust and be trusted. But I don’t want that belonging to be dependent on adhering to certain set of beliefs." That's the one remaining pain point after leaving the church - it was a community, I had a people, and while I don't want that kind of community back I've yet to find any meaningful replacement for it.
Try being the “one who breaks away” and attends a non-evangelical college. Everything about this choice is suspect and treated as a de facto denunciation of Christian faith